I have loved a man more than anything else a few years ago but pain is the only thing I got from him and a child. I never really felt he loved me the way I did but I couldn't see it coz I was blinded by my love. Now, everything is over between us, I have moved on. My friends told me that if ever I love again, I should not give my world to him, that I should have learned my lesson before. But hey, Ryzhen wouldn't be Ryzhen if Ido that coz this is me. If I love, I give it all. That if I hold back, the word LOVE wouldn't make any sense. Now, Im inlove again. It all started with a kiss on the top of my head that sent electricity to my body and penetrated every cell .. it was simple gesture yet it was full of love. It is the kind of kiss that sinks through your bones.When I told him that it was the best kiss, he just said "my love for you throughout the years was collected in that little kiss that's why it got you".And it really got me. It's been four months, our relationship got stronger the last two months when we faced and still facing trials that we meet on our way. Now, were stronger than ever. I love him more than I did yesterday. He's very considerate, kind, thoughtful and loving. He convinced me to get back to God whom I forgot. Our relationship will be guided by God so that it will never fall apart. He loves my daughter so much that he never thinks she's not from him. He even told me in one of our conversations that he might spoil her. He just shared to me his dreams and aspirations for the three of us. The dreams are so wonderful it hurts because it will take around 2 years before it will come true. How I wish the three of us could be together sooner. Im certain that our life would be very happy as long as we hold on to each other and to our dreams. I am SO happy I got him in my life. Life will never be the same without him.. I love you so much my love!! ^^ I am so blessed to have you.

KUMPLIKADO

so how this will be? Uhm... this will be the first time i'm writing something about my lovelife ^^ i just hope none of my family members would read this hehe ^^ they're kinda mad the way things are going on with my lovelife. See, I have a boyfriend and we've been together for 4 months now... But honestly, he started courting me since 2003 I think. I kinda forgot coz he was just an ordinary guy for me before.. hehe Anyway, we don't see each other that often coz I am grounded. hahha 25y/o single mom and grounded. ^^ He came from a broken family that is why they dislike him. I guess they're just scared that he might leave me and my daughter in the future. How I wish they could give him a chance to prove himself.. Well, he doesn't really need to prove himself to other people its just that proving himself to my family would ensure peace ^^ between him and my family. He is a great guy. I have faith in him. Kung lolokohin niya lang ako, ndi na siya magaantay ng 7 taon para lang gawin yun. People should stop judging other people based from the family they came from. Why do they always look for flaws when the goodness is very obvious? Why doubt and not have faith? Ito lang masasabi ko, a few years from now, they would eat every word they threw at us.

Here I am..

Well well well... its been a while. I miss posting stuff here. ^^ The last time I wrote something here was when I watched New Moon, the sequel to Twilight and that was in November. Tomorrow, I'll be watching the third installment to the saga which is ECLIPSE. Time flies when your not doing anything productive haha. This is like a place where I stayed for some time and left. Now, I'm back to visit my grave haha ^^And its really really old you know. I kinda want to fix it and maybe change the design/layout but I'm too lazy to do it.

ryzhie- drifting off

its been months since the last time i posted something here. this blog isn't working anymore for me. im stuck in our house and unable to do the things that i love.. except reading. im close to reading all the books i've bought and by the time comes.. i won't have anything to read again. damn! life really sucks! im just lucky i have Amber who takes away the frown off my face. tonight, i'll watch the same tv channels. if i get bored, i'd get my brain cells exhausted to sodoku until i fall asleep. God! i am so, so frustrated. Good thing i got to watch New Moon a while ago, though i wasn't really satisfied. I really wish somebody would help me get out of this mess! Life's just so hard. Just don't forget to smile... always! ^^

99 Ballons

I just saw the video of Eliot, a baby who was diagnosed of Trisomy 18 or Edward's syndrome and is unlikely to live when born. ****Infants born with Edwards syndrome may have some or all of the following characteristics: kidney malformations, structural heart defects at birth (i.e., ventricular septal defect, atrial septal defect, patent ductus arteriosus), intestines protruding outside the body (omphalocele), esophageal atresia, mental retardation, developmental delays, growth deficiency, feeding difficulties, breathing difficulties, and arthrogryposis (a muscle disorder that causes multiple joint contractures at birth).[8][9] Some physical malformations associated with Edwards syndrome include: a small head (microcephaly) accompanied by a prominent back portion of the head (occiput), low-set, malformed ears, abnormally small jaw (micrognathia), cleft lip/cleft palate, upturned nose, narrow eyelid folds (palpebral fissures), widely-spaced eyes (ocular hypertelorism), drooping of the upper eyelids (ptosis), a short breast bone, clenched hands, underdeveloped thumbs and or nails, absent radius, webbing of the second and third toes, clubfoot or Rocker bottom feet, and undescended testicles in males.[8][9]*** Eliot lived for 99 days... I greatly admired his parents for not actually giving up. They lived each day solely for that day and not thinking about tomorrow or whatever it is coming. They celebrated everyday as his birthday. Watching it brought tears in my eyes. I may not understand exactly how they feel but I can see that they feel blessed for having Eliot for 99 days when they were told they wouldn't.

Slightly Series by Mary Balogh

This is the story of Colonel Aidan Bedwyn who married Eve Morris, daughter of a coal miner because of a promise to a dying comrade.

This one is of Rannulf BEdwyn and Judith Law, the redhead daughter of a clergyman. Can you imagine Freyja Bedwyn giving Joshua Moore two punches straight to his face before marrying him? Such a lovely story. I love this particular one. I still don't have the three remaining books in this series coz i haven't found them yet.. but Im really excited to get my hands to these!!! Im looking forward of reading the story of Wulfric. IT would surely delight me.

The Hundred Islands

Every year, we go to the Hundred Islands (Alaminos, Pangasinan) to take a dip, swim, to get tanned or just simply to enjoy the summer. I remember when I was 18 or 19 I was badly burned due to non-stop activities under the scorching sun. It was really painful.. Can't sleep on my back and I can't even wear a brassiere for like 2 days and after a week, my skin was peeling off like i was some sort of a snake eeww Hehe Last year (December 2008), I was with my friends and the only thing I won't forget with that trip was when we swam from one island to another. I consider it as an adventure and accomplishment because I've never thought I could pull off something like that. This year, we went back again with my family of course. Here are some of the pictures.

Ozine Fest '09 : Moments

Official poster for the event Me and Kakashi-sensei

Wratheaven

L.O.G. Girls

Konoha Kids

Love the eyes..

Naishi-san

Vampire Princess Miyu

Gotcha! (That bandaged guy is just so cute!!!)

The Samurai

Misty and Naishi

Lady Butterfly

Majinbu, do I look like a chocolate to you?

Knight Stories

Been a fan of Arthurian legends even before realizing or believing that in my previous life I was a knight. ahaha! Everytime I come across a book related to being a knight especially if the plot is good, I purchase it. Anyway, Im subscribed to http://Free-eBooks.net/ and this week's list of free e-books include A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur's Court by Mark Twain. Check it out! Enjoy!!

AMber lookin' a 2yr/old baby